It's late, about 3:30am central time. I can't sleep.

N is graduating this May and I still don't know what to get him as a gift. I mean I'm pretty broke as it stands. I know he likes custom art of his characters from RolePlay stuff, but I just feel like my skills at drawing anything are so poor. I spent more time learning my way around making custom web graphics and learning the CGI coloring methods than really learning how to draw. So much for those however many thousands of dollars my parents invested on me in middle and high school for the private lessons... I just don't think I've got the raw talent that I see every day when I log here onto DA.

Finals week is approaching, I don't know if I'm going to pass any of my classes despite working my butt off. I can't say I really have anyone to blame, even myself for this. The nursing core is difficult and it seems pretty normal to be repeating classes.

In other news, we've gone ahead and set the date for a church wedding. Next July we're going to be going through all the formalities with the Eastern Orthodox church. So I get to spend the next year trying to get my Mother on board, finding a photographer, finding a dress, and making N give me a damn guest list! (you heard me buddy... you're giving me names under penalty of death!!)

This past school year has been difficult, I don't really know anyone still (not for lack of trying to be honest), my roommates seem to have taken an immediate dislike to me once I actually moved in, and I'm pretty isolated. These roommates have driven me up the wall this semester, making a very difficult adjustment to a new place to live and being on my own even harder than it needs to be. They've said horrible things about me behind my back, they've stolen my food (I only get $30 x 2 weeks for food and no meal card), and made all attempts to drive me out of the apartment. To top it all off my parents don't seem to be for caring about much other than themselves, and seem to have decided to cut me off in more ways than one.

To top it all off, a crazy ex of mine has taken to stalking my facebook again. Having made no attempts to contact this man, or even look for him, I have received multiple friend requests this past year. N has already talked to him once about staying away, and I can't put a restraining order in because he's in another state.

I know some people would say, "Oh well this is just part of being an adult.".. Well I call bullshit on that. It's not normal to be isolated, it's not normal to have people stealing your food, or for family members to have an inability to call you.